Tuesday, November 13, 2007

To friends and family

It has come to my attention that certain close relatives will inevitably find this blog. Well, I knew this would happen from the start. I have made no effort to hide the fact that I have a blog (it's on facebook, and I have mentioned it in conversation more than once). A year ago, I would have had reservations about talking about my atheism, but I no longer care if people know. I now realize that any fears were of my own making.

First, a little background. I consider myself to have deconverted somewhere between my junior year of high school and high school graduation. Previous to that, I didn't think too much about it. I went to a Catholic, Jesuit high school. I still think highly of the school, the education, and the Jesuits. I give them a lot of credit. I am not atheist because of a lack of education. I simply insisted on thinking for myself, as should all.

I say all this to disperse any feelings that anyone is "to blame". But the other reason that no one is "to blame" is that I don't even see it as a bad thing. For someone of my background, being atheist makes hardly a difference in who I really am. I would have the same personality, interests, and behaviors. Would it really make much of a difference if, in my long blog posts plumbing the depths of philosophy, I came to a slightly different conclusion at the end? I don't think anyone would ever have noticed if I never said anything about it. No, nothing happens to my morality either. For a college student, the morals I have are relatively conservative (e.g. no alcohol). If my beliefs have made no difference in how I act, and will never do so, why should a god, or anyone, take offense to them?

Another thing I should say is that I do not consider myself to be a "seeker". I do not consider this to be one step in a spiritual journey. No, I think that this was just one brief detour, ended long ago, in the larger journey of life, which, when it comes down to it, really isn't just about religion.


Anonymous said...

Tell us how you fit into your family.

miller said...

Don't get me wrong. I fit fine with my family, and no relationships are at all strained. If you were looking for drama, this is unfortunately the wrong place to look.

dartheyebunny said...

I've realized over the years that our family is quite different from many others.

miller said...

I disagree. That is, all families are different, and ours is not outstandingly so.

Anonymous said...

You know, of course, that this blog bars you from politics for life. And I had SO wanted you to be president!

I used to have a chance to be president, too, but I sold my chance for a quarter.

miller said...

I couldn't be president anyways, since I'm not a natural-born citizen. I feel discriminated against--where's my quarter?